if you learn one thing from following me

synecdoche:

It should be that you should definitely not keep a poland spring bottle of water next to a poland spring bottle filled with gin next to each other on your night stand because when you wake up at 6AM dying of dehydration and grab one to chug without looking, there is a 50/50 chance it will not end well.

This is a game of Russian Roulette you can play on your own.